I know, I know, it's nearly a month late! I had to sort through nearly 3,000 photos! And I've been a little busy too, as you can probably expect. Luna's 18 month photo album is HERE.
18 months now... While my little Luna is still quite tiny, she isn't so little anymore. Her presence and voice are huge, filling my days and nights with laughter, cries, happiness and sometimes frustration. Toddlers are not always easy, they are little mini humans trying to find their place in a world that doesn't always understand what they are trying to say, convey and express. I always try to imagine myself in a place where all these big people around me don't understand my language and why they aren't tending to my needs immediately (however irrational those needs may be). It must be hard!
Luna just gets more and more adorable with every day that passes. She's now on the brink of saying more words than mama, dada and cat as she has been trying out different sounds for style and sometimes repeating words like auntie, dance, banana. Her main forms of communication are really her little language, the signs she has created (there are two for no and it's very clear what they mean), and mini (and major) meltdowns. It's hard for me to ignore the tantrums as up until now I have never ignored her cries, but it's the only way to make them stop. If you try to calm her down she just screams louder, unless you allow her to nurse and then she quietens down, all well in the world again. Which is fine when I'm not nursing Aurora, but not so much when I am. It must be difficult to understand why what was readily available 24/7 is now not always there. There has been an increase in her nursing time over the past month, we were down to naps and bedtime before Aurora was born, and now it's creeping back up again. It's fine, it's a big transition and I don't blame her for looking for comfort.
We finally changed doctors and now Luna sees Aurora's pediatrician. I actually really liked Luna's previous pediatrician, and while I could just about deal with the 2-3 hour waits with just one child there is no way that I could handle it with two. The kids now see the pediatrician at the same clinic where I had my prenatal visits and they are fast, efficient, good and also pro-breastfeeding. It's a breath of fresh air after having a pro-formula doctor before, and feeling a little frustrated about not feeling very supported.
We had Luna's 18 month appointment where she got her flu shot (I may be a bit of a hippie in some ways but I am 100% pro-vaccination. My own amazing immune system isn't going to protect Luna forever, and for her the flu could easily lead to a hospital stay rather than a week in bed - not that I need to justify our decisions in any way). Our little one still weighs 19lbs 6oz and now measures 31in. Her doctor isn't too worried about her weight, but did encourage me to wean her if I wanted her to eat more. Basically the idea of "when she is really hungry she will eat". I told her I wasn't ready yet and that weaning her in addition to the transition of becoming a big sister would be too much. And Luna is just not the type of kid to be forced into anything. She does eat when she's hungry, you just never know when that will be. So we sit down for breakfast, lunch and dinner around the same time every day, but she may or may not decide that she needs to eat at other times. This is fine, I thrive on basic structure with a lot of freedom thrown in, I'm sure she does too. I know a lot of people need routine, but our schedules are so flexible anyway that it's fine. My only big stickler is bedtime, and I try to get both kids bathed and bed ready by 8. It's a bit more lax when Cesar is home, but if he's working I like to spend those evening hours working too.
Luna still wakes up frequently, I think she probably always will. Nowadays I just cherish those moments of cuddling her back to sleep as one day she won't need me anymore and then I will miss it. Those days of sleepless nights and baby wide awake time at 3am seem so far away now!
I love seeing how much joy she brings to others. I push the double stroller with her at the helm, waving and smiling at passers by, who smile and wave back. I love the way she screams in delight when her daddy throws her up in the air, or how she smiles and stops everything when a Nick Cave song starts, swaying along with the music until it ends. I love how she grabs my phone, puts it to her ear and starts shouting "Dada!!!" followed by a whole story in Luna language. The way she still won't sit in the bathtub but finds it hilarious to pour water over her face and on the floor. And I love how she has developed a taste for drawing...
Everywhere! Crayon scribbles have been appearing all over walls and doors and windows. She falls asleep with a crayon in each hand. My best friend was playing with her last night, showing her how to hold the crayon correctly and she kept transferring it to her left hand. So who knows, maybe we have a lefty in the family! I love giving her creative license to do whatever she wants. Crayon comes off the walls with a magic eraser and she will soon learn that paper is a better option. She's very creative with clothes too, while we still dress her she has been showing us things she wants to wear more and more frequently now. And as soon as we add an accessory like a hat, or a new coat, she runs to the mirror to look at herself in it! So cute! Both Cesar and I love the movie Instructions Not Included and I would like to think that we can parent in the same way. I don’t think there is anything wrong with letting kids be kids. We both had to learn to be grown ups very fast, so it makes me happy that I can spoil my kids by giving them complete creative and imaginative freedom. They will realize soon enough that there is a lot of hardship and evil in this world, so why force it upon them earlier? So yes, she can draw on the walls all she likes!
This may or may not be the last Luna update until she is 2 (my gosh… it seems so soon already). I'm so glad I have created these albums and stories for her, maybe she will appreciate them later on in life <3
“If you want your children to be intelligent, read them fairy tales. If you want them to be more intelligent, read them more fairy tales.” - Albert Einstein