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I have decided that not only is Ludo a giant, he is also a genius in training. So wise, observing us move around each other, around his world, laughing at us, and figuring things out way too early. I wouldn’t be surprised if he talks way earlier than the girls did, both of whom have taken (or are taking still in Aurora’s case) their own time to develop their language skills. Ludo seems to just find it easier, already, to tell us what he wants.
He’s such a big boy! He’s nearly 28 inches long and just over 21lbs now, his weight gain stalled a little from when he turned 4 months old and started to crawl. Now he zooms around everywhere, sits up and has started to pull himself up... I can’t keep up! Even Cesar was saying the other day that he wishes he would slow down just a little so that we can really appreciate the baby days. But I fear the baby days are well and truly behind us now!
Ludo was a little extra fussy over Christmas, but didn’t seem to have any teeth coming through, or so I thought... One day there was nothing, the next day four, yes four, bottom teeth had popped out, all at the same time. I felt terribly guilty as they were most likely really bothering him! Now I’m just waiting for 4 more to pop through unexpectedly at the top. I thought the girls were early teethers, but this little one is racing to catch up with them in every way!
I love watching him watch them, observing their every move, trying to join in, and then getting a little frustrated when he can’t. Luna is still so patient with him, always rushing to help him, making him scream with laughter, and Aurora is becoming a lot more friendly with him too (although she seems to think he is her new horse and should therefore be ridden around the room).
What else… Ludo’s hair is going from dark brown like mine to auburn like Cesar’s. I’m so excited about that for some reason! I love the color of Cesar’s hair. We think it may be curly like Luna’s but we won’t know for a while yet. We are letting his hair grow out for a few years though, as there really is nothing cuter!
We had a wonderful visit from my best friend Meg; and our lovely friend Jenny (aka the baby whisperer) spent New Year’s Eve with us AND now lives in Sacramento which is brilliant. And we also got to spend loads of time over Christmas with the kids’ Uncle Dylan and Auntie Lacy, and their Nana of course.
Ludo is still exclusively breastfed, although we have started to introduce food very slowly. Well he’s had a piece of banana twice now and apparently a chocolate biscuit that I retrieved from his mouth, but I shall be ramping that up over the next few weeks and see how it goes! So he didn’t get any Christmas dinner, but he did have a lovely first Christmas! I wish I had taken more photos, I’ve been really bad at that recently.
I’ve been a bit bad at a lot of things really to be honest. Being a mother to three kids under four is really hard work, especially as Cesar is working two jobs to keep us afloat. Ludo has come to that point where he feels some severe separation anxiety, and Luna is going through another round of hers (more about that another time), so I have to re-evaluate my priorities and to-do list on a daily basis. My mother moved back to England just after Christmas too, so we really are all by ourselves again here! Hopefully we will also be able to move again at some point this year, but that is also another story for another time. In the meantime the kids are all thriving and that is the most important right now. I promise to try and do a better job with photos over the next few months, it’s just a bit tough with him zooming around everywhere, and they all end up blurry!
Finally before I sign off (and Ludo wakes up), Ludo is just a bit of a better sleeper than Luna was, but not by much. He still wakes multiple times a night, and not really because he’s hungry. He also isn’t a great napper. I know now to not hope for it to get better until it gets better though, so sleep deprivation is still going to be a reality for a while. I’m sure when they are all in their teens I will be complaining that they are always sleeping!!
Sometimes I feel like my heart may explode when I look at their little faces, and I don’t know what we did to be blessed with such extraordinary children. Whatever we did it was definitely right! They inspire me to always aim to be a better me, even if sometimes I feel like I’m not doing a very good job at it. Hopefully this will always inspire them to reach for the stars and never back down, even when they are too weary to go on.
Sleeping baby, so quiet in my arms
Clenched fist around my finger,
I dare not remove it in case you wake up
These moments are soft
I feel the heaviness behind my eyes
Days of little sleep building up
Sorry, nights. I dream, eyes open.
The book falls to the ground
On the same page I left it an hour ago.
These moments, too short
I forget to appreciate them fully
These moments where I do no wrong.