This month’s photo album is HERE.
I’m not a big fan of Time right now… Running away from me again, and I’m just not interested in catching up. Can everything just go by a teeny little bit more slowly please? Ludo is now already two months old, and in one constant, never-ending growth spurt! This summer has flown by, and on the one hand I am really looking forward to cooler weather, where it’s easier to carry a baby around in a carrier and go to more places, but I also know that it won’t be autumn here for quite a while longer. Sometimes I feel myself wishing for us to hop over to the days where things are a little easier, where baby sleeps longer at night and doesn’t demand to be fed every few minutes, but those thoughts also fill me with sadness because the newborn I gave birth to two months ago has already gone, and is now a big, healthy, happy baby! You really don’t get those days back, and I am so happy that I was able to cherish and hold on to them for the time they lasted, even amidst the chaos of having two toddlers.
Ludo doesn’t have his two month appointment until later this week, so I will have the final weight and height measurements then, but at the last weighing here at home he was 15.4 pounds, and now wears 6 month and up sized clothing. We are lucky it’s still summer because all 6 month pants are too long, but anything under that size is too small for his body, so he’s in rompers and onesies for now. I do think another trip to the thrift store is in the cards for us over the next few weeks! If anyone knows of a charity taking clean, well-kept second hand baby clothes for hurricane victims please let me know. So, yes, he’s a big boy, and my first huge baby! And so strong, he is already trying to roll over, worming all over his mat and beyond on his tummy. I think we definitely put any of those silly myths to rest that tandem or triandem nursing deprives the baby of milk, because he’s getting more than enough of it, as are the girls. I will go into more detail on triandem nursing in a month or two, it’s not without its ups and downs, but in the meantime we are still going strong, and I feel perfectly fine, apart from being tired. But the tiredness isn’t really related to nursing.
As many of you know, I found out I was pregnant with Ludo on Election Day last year, and that I was pregnant through the first months of an unwanted and tumultuous presidency. I always worried that if I were upset or stressed out or afraid then the baby would feel it, so I tried very hard to be strong, happy, and relaxed. Even his birth was hours and hours of breathing, of meditation, and barely any freak-out moments. Turns out that Ludo is a calm baby, and even when he is fussy and overtired, he is still easy to calm, a kiss and cuddle and some nursing usually doing the job. There are none of those late night tears that I had while trying to soothe a colicky Luna, and while Ludo wakes more than Aurora did (it’s not possible to beat Luna in unwillingness to sleep though), he is still quite predictable in his patterns. For now, who knows what next week will bring! But, in any case, when I look into his eyes I see peace, knowledge, and understanding, with a side of laughter. Out of grey times rises a little shining gem. I know my need to both protect them from the world and expose them to the dangers is a tough challenge, but Cesar and I will continue on our quest to do so. Our children will be part of a generation that treats each other and the world in a better way.
Whether you follow the Wonder Weeks leaps or not, they have always been pretty spot on for my kids, and Ludo isn’t an exception. I immediately noticed when he had come to the tail end of the second leap, his smiles coming more quickly, less hesitant, his responses to our voices more defined. He coos and goos and grunts, and laughs when tickled, and absolutely adores his big sister Luna. That adoration is completely reciprocated: Luna will spend ages sitting next to her brother; stroking his face and talking to him, helping me change his diapers and bringing me his pillow and blanket. Aurora is still more interested in her toys and playing with her sister, but she is a lot more gentle with him now, looking at him with curiosity. Every week we make a little more progress, some weeks we take a step back, but all in all the transition to a family of five has been steady, Ludo fitting into his place as if it had always been there for him. He has always been there in my heart, I just didn’t know until he came into existence. I now have trouble remembering back to the time when he wasn’t part of our lives. I just hope I am able to give him the same attention I gave his sisters, as having three kids so close together is definitely a blessing, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t sometimes hard going. A little more sleep would be nice, a shower by myself from time to time, but these moments are gone in the blink of an eye, and a few more wrinkles and grey hairs are just part of the journey.
This coming month we have his first shots, hopefully slightly better (as in cooler) weather, and lots of walks around our neighborhood planned. I am really enjoying getting to know our new area on foot with my little family, discovering art and coffee shops and restaurants, and finding our own spots again, altogether.