This month's photo album is HERE.
4 months, the end of the year, the beginning of a new one. A few days ago I realised just how fluid love is, how it surrounds you and wraps you in its warmth, how it silently tiptoes up behind you and how it hits you in the face, full force, no brakes. With Luna love hit me like that, the moment I heard her first cry. A love that was often fraught with the terror of ever losing her. That terror dissipated within a few months, but stayed wild, nearly feral with its sheer force. With Aurora there was less angst, a growing sense of love from the moment I knew she was there, a blossoming of feelings and emotions at her birth and a full blown explosion of everything at once a few days later. There will never be too much or too little love in our home, there will always be more than enough to go round and round and round again.
Our little big girl turned four months old just after Christmas and now weighs in at 15.5 lbs and measures 26 inches. She's been wearing 6 month sizes for a while now and I'm moving her up to 9 month now! She's been in size 3 diapers for a few weeks, but with the growing chubs on her legs I'm going to have to get some size 4 in soon! Luna is still in size 4 so at least they will be able to share now.
There is something so calming about Aurora's personality. She really emanates an aura of peace and serenity. That's not to say she doesn't have her moments of being fussy or crying, and when she does cry her distressed cry you know she really isn't happy, but most of the time she is a little sunshine, shining her way into everyone's hearts.
I feel slightly guilty because she still doesn't get as much floor time as Luna did, and when she does I have to be constantly vigilant of where Luna puts her feet as well as making sure Luna doesn't steal all of Aurora's toys, but she's still mastered the art of rolling back to front (not front to back yet though, although that is just a matter of days now). And just like her sister at that age, she's ready to explore the world one roll at a time! It always surprises me how they tolerate tummy time much better once they figure out how to roll. I think arm and shoulder strength is developed just as well on the floor as on us, and Aurora has spent a lot of times on my belly!
This month we have had several special moments, Aurora's first and Luna's second Christmases of course, but also a trip into Manhattan to see the tree at Rockefeller Center and the one in Bryant Park, as well as a little walk around Midtown. We wanted to hit the LES up too, but I could tell that both kids needed some down time so we did the smart thing and went to take our, now annual, silly Father Christmas photos and then went home. Aurora just sat on his lap, as calm as can be!
It's hard to describe her little personality because as calm and serene as she can be, she is also super strong-willed and always makes herself heard when she needs to. Her laugh is amazing and infectious and so cute, and her smile is seriously worth a million dollars. On Christmas Day we put her on the slide and in the swing at the park for the first time and she absolutely loved it! It was wonderful to have them in side by side swings, watching how Aurora watched her sister and how Luna cracked up every time Aurora squealed in delight.
Aurora has been big enough to fit in the Ergo without the insert for a while now, and loves being carried, as much as I love carrying her, so that's great for trips into the city, journeys by plane and even shopping trips. It's still hard to go to the park by myself because you have to chase after Luna and it's a little hard with a baby attached to me, and I don't dare leave her in the stroller anywhere. Even if we are in a relatively low crime area there are always weirdos in the park (as well as drug dealers which really annoys me - go work somewhere else where there aren't kids playing!). I'm looking forward to checking out the park right by my mother's house in California. I feel like we will miss winter here and miss it there too. I wouldn't be able to leave NYC in the spring, summer or autumn, so this is the perfect time to slip away and pick up elsewhere.
I even went on my first evening out alone for the first time since before Luna was born! Ebedet bought us tickets to see Sleater-Kinney at Irving Plaza and it was fantastic! It was also lovely to walk around a little bit, with my new headphones on and spend some time thinking about everything and not feeling needed for a few hours. Of course I missed the girls and Cesar though, but they seemed to have done absolutely fine without me. Aurora refused to drink the milk I had pumped so she woke up and nursed for a while, but I think if she had really been hungry she would have taken the bottle. Not that I'm that interested in finding out... I'm happy that I haven't had to wean Luna off the bottle and/or pacifier so it will be the same for Aurora. (Although we have our own "issues" with weaning Luna off anything haha!).
We have also been blessed with many visits from my wonderful Meg. I’m so happy that she has been able to spend time with us all, and I love seeing how much she has bonded with both girls. She’s really amazing with them and that makes me incredibly happy. The same with Henna too. These two ladies have been with me through thick and thin and I cannot imagine my life, or the lives of my children without them.
There are many places I would like Aurora to see before we leave: Coney Island, the Lower East Side, the Mark Ryden exhibition... There are many places I need to see one more time too. I can't say that we will never be back, that would be silly, but I really want the girls to see their hometown, and their parents home, through our eyes. I just hope the mild weather will hold up a little longer!!
I will finish off for this month while Aurora nurses and Luna naps, and will try to post next month's before we leave into another whirlwind! As I've always said, as long as the 4 of us are together everything will be OK. As long as we have that love with us we don’t really need anything else.